My divorce is final!

After being separated for 2 years my divorce was final yesterday. It is sometimes hard to believe it has been 2 years. So many good things have happened since that day yet the first year was very emotional for me. Had I been the one to initiate the divorce I do not think it would have affected me as hard. I had kicked him out several times but would take him back. I think in order for me to grow as a person I had to experience the pain of him leaving me.

It was a bitter sweet day for me yesterday. I am sad my marriage ended yet happy that it did. There are things I miss and things I am glad are gone.

Things I miss:

* The excitement of him coming home from work
* Tuesday night date night (usually dinner and a movie)
* Intimacy
*Being a two income household
*My best friend
*The thought of someone loving me
*The man I made him out to be in my head

Things I do NOT miss:

*Wondering how many women he was flirting with on the Internet that day
*Trying to guess if he wanted something or wasting my time doing it and he not want it. Which ever I chose was wrong. If I made breakfast for him he didn't want it. If I didn't, I was a lazy wife.
*Cooking for him because he never liked what I fixed
*The Porn in my home
*Worrying that he only married me for a greencard and would leave once it came
*Having to do all the housework without any help at all
*Having him get upset with me for letting a coffee sit for weeks in our bedroom instead of throwing it away (why he couldn't throw it away is beyond me)




There are days I miss him and then I talk to him on the phone or get an email from him and it only takes a few words from him to remember why I am glad we are no longer together.